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What’s the hold-up?

Things have been changing quite a bit for me. All for the better, though stressful at the moment. While pushing forward with all kinds of new things, I have had to re-evaluate how much time I have to devote to projects.

For the foreseeable future, I won’t have time to do this project as originally intended. However, I’m not abandoning it! I’m just changing it. Trimming all the excess I can.

The thing I think is the most important in this project is for me to share what I did to understand and begin working with my social anxiety. Everything else, while helpful, is something either that could be done by someone else or can wait until I have more time.

This slimmed down project will still take me some time, but at least now I can complete it.

 
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Posted by on May 6, 2015 in Uncategorized

 

Employment and Social Anxiety

Still not settled into the workshop, but I am hopeful that in the coming week I will be able to set up more permanently there. I have some exciting personal news that could lead to more income – and paradoxically more time for working on my projects. I think the sheer amount of work involved in having anxiety is vastly unappreciated. It is an unpaid part time job. (Full time for many folks.)

In my experience talking with and reading about other people who have SA, I have noticed a trend towards un- or under-employment. It makes sense. If you can’t follow or understand the social rules at a workplace, it’s not going to take long for problems to crop up. Many folks with SA are branded as unfriendly, dour, rude, or just weird. Nothing that you want to be if you would like to climb a career ladder.

As far as I know, getting on disability with social anxiety is very difficult. Even though it is possible to get on SSI with a diagnosis of social anxiety, many people find getting diagnosed in the first place impossible. There is a financial cost that must be paid; and if you have very little income, there may be no money for that. Additionally, it is just generally difficult to get social anxiety diagnosed. The symptoms don’t lend themselves towards discussion with counselors. Even making a phone call to get an appointment can be too hard for some people.

I think there is some hope in at-home employment, as micro-working and freelancing sites have become widely available. Unfortunately, there is an additional problem here. The more lucrative positions require training or experience that a person with SA might not have. The problems of SA affect students as much or more as non-students seeking to be employed. A person with SA may be unable to complete classes because the social environment there is too much. Or the process of seeking financial aid and getting all signed up may be too much to begin with.

Additionally, any one who doesn’t have any kind of business experience at all can end up doing a lot of work for very little payoff. So otherwise enthusiastic and persistent workers might waste a lot of time without getting anywhere. Some sites, like Mechanical Turk, have plenty of entry-level jobs – but many of them pay poorly and it can take a long time before a new worker there is able to access anything worth doing. Without engaging in the rest of the community that works on Mechanical Turk, new workers can easily miss out on information to make that work worth doing.

Passive income opportunities, like affiliate marketing problems, can be great provided someone has a wide enough audience or knows how to advertise. People with SA can have great difficulty with either of these. Also, some ways to advance in affiliate marketing cost money in the first place, putting them out of range of folks who don’t have any way to save up money in the first place.

One of the larger goals of this project, beyond the book, is to help other people with SA get some kind of income going. I feel that a lot of talent goes to waste because folks who are otherwise able to do work are hindered by unnecessary social requirements. I’m still considering how this might be accomplished. Sometime soon I plan to outline some ideas here and seek feedback and suggestions on them.

 
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Posted by on February 7, 2015 in Uncategorized

 

Breathing is important

If you want the short version of everything I have founds works for dismantling social anxiety, here you go:

1. Observe yourself doing things, so you can note your problems.
2. Experiment with different techniques, and observe how these affect your problems.

Approaching it like this by myself has been helpful.

 

I’m  working on a lot of stuff personally with anxiety. My personal experience with dismantling anxiety is that progress is intermittently interrupted by sliding back for awhile. I think it’s part of the process. It’s also different to slide back, because I observe it happening with new knowledge and skills. I have a better idea that I’m not destined to experience it forever – so the anxiety is blunted a little bit. Almost always, I find the solution is to get something new. A new technique, or a new perspective. Sometimes pulling up old things I’d tried before is just what’s needed to pull me out of it.

My current trick comes from a voice exercise that is meant to loosen the throat muscles up. Basically, put your tongue in an ‘n’ position (as if you were saying ‘nun.’). Start with a note, slide up to a higher note, then slide back down again. The reasoning I was given for this exercise is that the tongue controls the same muscles that constrict the throat. I don’t know how accurate this is – but anything that has to do with loosening throat muscles is of interest to me.

Two of the most constant symptoms of my anxiety are tightened neck/throat muscles, and a tightened chest. When it’s really bad, it’s like I’m constantly holding my breath. This leads to injuries if I don’t keep it in check, and just general pain. (In my case, my shoulders, neck, chest, and knees suffer. I also get bad TMJ.) So any new idea I can find that will help me breathe is worth trying.

So far, the exercise itself isn’t fixing anything for me. I’m just too good at keeping everything tense to let a little thing like therapeutic exercises stop me. There has been a benefit, though – I am thinking more and more about whether my mouth is tense. Am I clenching my jaw? Am I holding my breath like I’m a small critter who needs to be quiet to avoid being eaten? I intend to keep doing these exercises daily, because I’m hopeful the increased mindfulness will eventually solve this problem for me.

 

 
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Posted by on January 19, 2015 in Uncategorized

 

So about that deadline…

I’m not sure if I will be keeping my end of year deadline. I may be moving to a two year deadline instead. This week I’ll be settling into new workshop space, making schedules and plans. So I intend to make a decision about it by Friday.

The end of last year and the beginning of this one has been a time of evaluation for me. I experienced a lot of changes, lots of stress. Lots of pushes to figure out what’s really important to me.

I decided that, even though I’ve been cutting extraneous projects out of my life, I still haven’t found focus. So I’ve decided that what I really need to do is pick one thing that is my ultimate focus – the thing that I would talk about if someone asked me, “What do you do?” And then keep one other thing as a side project. There is room for other hobbies, but no more projects than that.

Unfortunately, this book is not my main project. Puppetry, I have discovered, is a natural venue for me to communicate. While there are other things I am good at and enjoy, this is as close as I can imagine to a calling for me. To actually get what I want to get out of it, though, I need to get a lot more rigorous about practice and filming.

Very shortly, I will start writing posts about what I’ve got done so far, and also things that you might want to try out for yourself. I’m also hoping to gather up a list of resources, and spruce this site up.

 

 
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Posted by on January 18, 2015 in Uncategorized

 

Time to get started again!

I’m going to be working a bit on the art this book will be illustrated. As the name suggests, it’s going to be full of red pandas. (It won’t be a comic book, though. That’s a little too complicated for me, and would take much, much longer.)

I’m also working on some interview questions. I have some groups and people in mind that I’d like to ask some questions for. For instance, I’m hoping to get in contact with The Second City, an improv club/school that has programs for dealing with anxiety. Not being in the area, I haven’t been able to experience this program – but I have done some improv, and found it immensely helpful. There are also a few mental health groups I’d like to contact.

At this stage, I have ideas about what I want to say – but it’s all pretty disorganized right now. So I just have to push through that and keep fussing with it, and eventually everything will take shape.

 

 
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Posted by on December 14, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

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Progress is on hold.

Our cat very recently passed, and I am in no condition to continue any projects for the time being. I will alert everyone when I am ready to start working on this again.

 
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Posted by on December 3, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

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Let’s start this project!

Actually, I’ve already started. I’ve been working on the first draft of Red Panda’s Book of Social Anxiety for a month or so, and it’s going along swimmingly. Now I’m at the stage where I need help from other folks, hence this blog now exists. I’ll be doing more work on it later. For now, all the relevant info is here on this Storify post.

One problem I’m going to have to figure out how to overcome is regional differences in social behavior. I’ve lived a number of places in the US, but I haven’t lived everywhere. And I have no idea how to prevent this book from being completely US Centric – at least the social interaction dictionary. So I think what I’m going to have to do is eventually find some other people to work with in making guides to social interactions in other countries.

Red Panda’s Book of Social Anxiety is not at all as daunting as the social interaction dictionary that I want to write. I am hoping, though, that I can get assistance from other folks who have more information than I have.

Keep an eye on this site for more relating to this project. Some initial artwork will be happening soon!

 
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Posted by on November 29, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

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